Sunday, October 4, 2009

havent been up to update

Sorry guys....i havent been able to get on in forever! There is so much that have been going on....i started school over a month ago! i think school right now is really boring and has no point. soooo anywayyy i'll try and get on more often.... <3

Friday, May 22, 2009

SUMMER!!! :)

I love the summer! i am so glad that summer vacation is here! i got out of schoool yesterday and i am soo happy and excited. Last night, i had a softball double header and guess what? we won both games by one! i think i lost my swing. so i will have to find it again! Our swimming pool might be put up this weekend. i love swiming in OUR pool. I cant wait until i have a lot planned. i will have friends over... softball stuff and church camp and a youth conference...Love ya guys....see ya soon.. :)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

he is great... I have finals next week and i am soo stressed!
Today was good. My choir concert was monday. :) i was very thankful because sister kissinger was there even though she was needed to be somewhere else. S

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Memories about You

3/12/09
Do you notice that we have too many memories?!?
Oh my goodness…too many!
Let’s list a few!
It will take hours!

All the dances
And the sleepovers
Youth conference
Do I need to say more?!

“We broke the bed!”
“We are dead!”
“Auburn, Ang, and St”
“Hot Guy and NO”

Did you not get that?!?!
NO=noah= BIG NO!!
Wow we were smart!
We thought they were good!

Man were we ever!
Wow…the room!
And the times you talk to him…
And HIS dreams… EWW

“My name is Ann and I’m Walking”
“I’m walking and my name is Ann”
“Do you have the GENIE?!?”
“No, but I have Dopey and the pumpkin!”

“It’s a girls night….with Brent!”
“Look at them Stallions”
“It’s COLD!!!”
We covered up and cuddled!!

And of course I can’t forget
All the church activities!
Man we have soo many
Inside jokes!! LOL

HERE...or not?

3/12/09
Are you here?!?
Nope…all I can see is your bug.
Amd soon that will be gone.
I hope its in great hands.

I’m sure it is.
I have no doubt
Your sister seems really nice.
She reminds me of you

I mean the little things I notice
Her attitude
Her phrases
And most of all her looks

When I look at her
I wonder how she looks into the mirror
I would think she would remember you
I wish I could see you right now.

No more drama…
No more guy problems…
You and Chad together…
FOREVER!!

my poems...

3/12/09
I wanna cry, but I have feelings on paper.
I only write if I feel something toward a topic.
My family and friends know that.
I have a ton of poems by now…

About love…
About sisterhood…
About everyday life…
And most of all…missing someone so dear.

memories...

3/12/09
Do you remember all the days in seminary?
I know I sure do!
The way you came in with a smile and
The way you pay attention.

I remember all of the days.
I love all the times where you were open
You really did open up
And that means a lot to me

All of the secrets between us,
Will never leave my lips
And stay within my heart.
I will keep our memories stored.

Do you remember the day when it ALL started?
All of the drama…I thank you tons!!
I really owe you a lot!
I don’t know how I can repay you!

Chad Roberts… I love that kid!
He’s taking it really hard.
He needs a lot of comfort
And his true friends by his side.

I know you want him to have friends still.
I know you loved him so.
All the nights you two spent together…
That must be a lot of memories!

Well... I know you are making sure
He’s fine and safe.
I know everyone…your family
And friends know that you are in a better place.

Girl, I’ll try to be strong,
And keep moving forward with ALL
Of our memories in my heart.
Have a great time and “shine”

you...

3/12/09
You make me smile.
You make me laugh
I know we weren’t perfect,
But we were like sisters.

We wanted to hang out more
I know we would have
And I know your soul was pure.
I know that you are far away.

I can not focus in class
Knowing you are gone.
I know I need to smile
And be strong.

You were great and touched many lives
You are loved in many ways
And I will someday see you again
I just gotta move forward.

You are in my heart now and forever
You have inspired me to do poetry again.
I love you chica
See ya later!

your mom's birthday

3/12/09
Yesterday was your mom’s birthday
Casey and I went over there to visit for 2 hours
I met your sister
She looks almost exactly like you.

I love that poem that you wrote about your mom.
That makes her so glad that you love her so.
I have known that you love Tom
And they found the letter that was going to Tom.

You’re my idol
You’re my angel
You were the reason I woke up in the morning.
I knew I could trust you with “anything and everything.”

I love you girl!

Omgsh why you still gone?

3/12/09
Megan, why?
I ask you why you are gone,
I miss you, sister!
And you have no idea how much.

I go by where you lay now,
When we drive by.
I just wanna cry like that day,
That we gathered there last.

And in seminary,
We talk about all the good things about you
And I miss you there too!
We used to have a lot of fun!

I remember that Friday morning in seminary.
We never got to play our game to review.
We just talked about Luke chapter 9.
“God doesn’t destroy lives, he saves them.”

There are many more things I love about you,
But I will stop now.
Just know…I love you sister.
I told you anything and everything.

Monday, March 2, 2009

my weekend!

my weekend was awesome! On Friday, i stayed home babysitting my little brother and sister! :) On saturday i went out and got some new cleats and a new softball bag...we went home and my parents shoveled the snow! there was sure a whole lot of it! My parents and i went to pick up casey to take us to a leaders house and get our hair and make-up done! It was so much fun! I looked really good.... then off to the dance! i saw Joey Allison again! its been awhile since ive seen him... when you get aubrey, him, and me together we have a great time and have so many inside jokes. We seriously had fun! Then sunday was church and we had a couple of people over for dinner!

Monday, February 23, 2009

My Day

wow. . . you have no idea how my day was today! It started great at seminary. . . but then i had to get a ride from Casey's Brother...he is a crazy driver. then his car is crowded with junk on the floor. when we got to school.. i tried to get out of the car....and my foot got stuck... then i grabbed the car door to get out and then my knees hit the concrete. Who do you think win? Me? no... the concete usually always wins! man it hurt soo bad. I have a huge bruise on my knee. i can barely walk. i walk with a limp. i knew i had to do PE too. I hate PE when i am seriously hurt! Then at lunch something really funny happned. . . this guy named Jacob tried to tell me a secret but didnt know that his milk was still open, so it spilled all over my jeans and sweatshirt! Man at first i was really mad at him, but i couldnt be mad at him. after i got it somewhat dry, i went back and showed him what he did and we just laughed about the whole thing. I cant wait for tomorrow! church is at a leaders house and we are doing a service game thing. We have teams.....hmmm i wonder how we are gonna be picking our teams!?!?!? I hope that i am with my besties! :) Love you guys!!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Crush

Feb. 6, 2009
Two that were great for each other
can never be
that all changed in one night
The guy that loved her so, hurt her
He dates her enemy
and only is friends with her
He goes to her for advice and
supports him when the enemy hurt him
She just sits there in awe
She wants to tell him "i told you so"
but she doesnt and says
" i love you" and hugs him
This point he has feelings for her
and never tells and
he continues to date the enemy
Every time it ends badly
Then one friday night
her and him go hill jumping
he comes up on a hill and
loses control...and crashes
She dies and he lives
He hates this ending
He whispers in her ear with tears
"i have always loved you. Im sorry, babe"

Perfect?!?!?

Feb. 6, 2009
You think i am PERFECT?!?!
I think NOT!
I make many mistakes
all the time... everyday!

I think no one is perfect
and shouldnt be judged by you or me
I think it is horrible
when i hear gossip!

I mean if you have the time
to gossip then you have no life
Gossip is really hurtful and
you should never gossip!

I know gossip hurts
The popular answer on why they do it
is that they are jealous of
something you cant control!

I hate Gossip!

Seminary

Feb. 6, 2009
I love Seminary
i love waking up
knowing i have people
that love me so

Seminary students are
my brothers and sisters
We sure act like it
But we have a great time

I cant think of one horrible thing
about actually going to seminary
i guess waking up so early, but you
have a head start on your day

you notice that people at high school
that complain that they are
tired and just woke up
when you go to seminary, you are wide awake

You would be able to get better grades
and get into the perfect college
you will have a great job and
then a wonderful spouse and children

I think it is great to go to seminary
i enjoy it a lot
I think you should give it a shot
if not, you are missing out

DRAMA

Feb. 6, 2009
Why do people hate me?
Is it because i am mormon?
Did i do something wrong?
I have no idea

What do they have against me?
They think i am weak
but they are so wrong
I am sick and tired of this crap

I deserve to be treated with respect
not like crap, im not a doormat
They cant walk all over me
This is stupid how they are acting

To tell you the truth
They have been acting like
2 year olds when
they dont get their way!

I will never fall away from my church
I love it now and forever
I have faith that i can be
with Megan Kitchen and the rest of my family

Best friends

Feb. 6, 2009
Friends. . . Best Friends
You know who you are
You were there for me last night
and through thick and thin

you have said things to care for me
and love me just the same
I know i make mistakes
But i know you will forgive me

I love you Besties!
You have loved me through everything
We are closer than ever
especially these past 2 months

I am so grateful for you guys
I have times that i hate life
and you tell me different & i might
hate you for it, but i notice that you were right

I lost a best friend just like a sister to me
and who could i turn to
i knew exactly who and
IT WAS YOU GUYS!

I <3 you Best Friends!

My Sister up above

Feb. 6, 2009
I miss her way too much
She was my sister
now she is gone
looking over me

She was gonna get me through
all of this stupid drama
And kick someone's butt
She loved and cared for me

I dont know now im getting through this
It has been hard
going by her locker and her grave everyday
and church. . and Seminary!

I miss her laugh
I miss her smile
I miss her drama
Oh how i miss those days together

I need to know and belive
that she is in a better place
I love her so much and will
FOREVER miss her

I miss my angel!

Rushing

Feb. 6, 2009
Couples at school
need to get a room
people dont wanna see that
Plus they should take it slow

I mean. . . the first hour
they start kissing and
by the end of the week
they do more

They are scarred for life
They cant say to their
spouse that they were
"saving" themselves for them

BIG SECRET

Feb. 4, 2009
You tell me
and no one else
you are in danger
i dont like seeing you like this

I love you brother
i want you to be happy
and you seem unhappy
I want the best for you

This secret you tell me
You've told no one else
We sit here thinking
of changing the subject

You need to stop listening
to the doctor. you are fine
YOU are not fat
just pick up a bat

Go and have fun
out in the sun
you mean a lot
no matter what!

Faith in Life

Feb. 2, 2009
I look back this past year
I used to be a grumpy old bear
Last year i replanted my seed
People have shown me the light

I have friends that i can talk to
And be an example to show them what's right
2nd Timothy 4:12 tells me to be an example
I love studing the scriptures

That's the reason i wake up early
While my friends complain that they are tired
I say, "I'm wide awake!"
They always look so confused

A horrible thing happened a little over a month ago
My best friend, Megan, had died
She was so young
I miss her so dearly

I just keep reminding myself that
she is in a better place than us
I have to have faith in the Gospel
and know i will see her again

After that, i say it was hard
I really tried my faith
and i know now
That my faith is stronger

Do you remember that Friday Night??

Feb. 2, 2009
Do you remember that Friday night?
Where our friend died from a car accident?
I dont want you to go that way
I care about you brother

All of the racin in the streets
wearing only the clothes you have on
Will get ya in trouble with the law
One wrong turn will make a difference

Even if you come up a hill wrong
Will be a life changer
You will never be able to take it back
Trust me and my words.

I love you my friend
And nothing will change that
You are just like my annoying siblings
That is just confused and needs a clear path

I know what you can do
and all you have to do is say "no"
You will be safe
And you'll have a longer life

Some day you will know my way
It may be hard, but so worth it
My favorite quote to say when they
want me to do bad is "I cant, Im Mormon!"

Thats not only what i say
I just know my standards
I knowmy true friends and they will respect me
Keep my words close to your heart!

2 months (almost)

Feb. 2, 2009
Already February
I cant believe it!
Its been almost 2 months
I dont know what to do

I wanna cry but
i need to be strong
One day i'll see you
And the next i dont

One day i will finally find out
exactly what i need to learn
I looked into the sky
And i can see your face

I wish now that i can be with you
To give you thanks
and all of the love
you have given me

True?

Feb. 2, 2009
I look in your eyes
I know you are true
Until i get lost
Then you make me sad
You said i was your lil sis
but you sure dont act like it
you act like i'm your lill hoe
and do whatever you like
I actually have feelings
i am a human being
You dont treat me like i am one
I look up and you are done
I feel bad for you
You havent been true
I am always blue
I am gonna get out of this!!
From now on
I will have no part of this
I am done with you
Now i wish you really were moving!!

Reminding me

Feb. 2, 2009
I sit here watchin' cartoons
It reminds me of two girls and you
They fight over a guy and
They are jealous all the time

They remind me of all of the girls at school
You dont mind at all
But it bothers me the most that they
Just want you to have a guy

They might feel a spark
Or maybe not?
I just wish
I would just get some attention

You love her and Never me

Feb. 2, 2009
You love her
And never me
The time goes on
She is gone now

Dont you see
How long i have been here
Just waiting who will come next?
Will it be from another school?

I really hope not
You see my friends
And you kiss them
But not even a hug for me

I lay here wondering
What crazt stunt you'll do next!
One day, you'll be gone
And i'll be here

All these days
I've been telling you how i feel
And you do it any way
I say my good byes

Goodbyes

All the laughs...
All the smiles..
Future will be different...
In a little while...

We will soon be walking different paths
Leaving each other for something new
Starting the thing that’s called life
Trying to figure out what to do

I look back and I remember the great times
The different moments that each of us shared
Whether it be some crazy story at school
Or the moments that we knew that we cared

I will miss you dearly I'm blessed enough to call you a friend
I wish life didn't have to change
But we will see each other once again
But I guess that is what we call life

And we have to say that hurtful word, goodbye
Goodbye to all the memories that each of us share
And it's going to be hard not to cry
Please know that if you ever need someone

Someone to call up and talk to
Someone to cry with on the phone
Or just someone that will listen to you
If you ever need some advice about your relationship

Or you need to know what you should do
If you ever need to yell, scream, or get mad
You know what to do
Please just give me a call, I will listen

I don't care what hour of the day or night
I am more than willing to give you help
I may not have all the answers but I will make everything alright
So thank you for everything that you've done for me

Thank you for forming me into the girl I am today
I would have never done it without you
And just know that our friendship will never fade away
So goodbye Friend

I hope you the best along the way
If we ever meet up down the road
I'm sure we will have a lot to say
So here we go, here it comes

This is really hard,
I'm not going to lie
I will miss you dearly, Friend
But for now, this is goodbye...

Everyday

We talked Every day
About nothing at times
But we talked none the less

You make me Smile
when i am down
You turn the biggest frown upside-down

I have come to realize all we will be
I know we will be Best Friends

To the day I die this be true
To the day of Death I will love you
Forever and Ever the end is

So with this i start a new beginning
With us as friends this as the end

Rough Here

Dec. 15, 2008
It has been rough here
Without you here with me
I miss you with all my heart
I remember so many things

Just like the time on your
birthday you just had to
go and get a Q-T drink
And the times in seminary

Oh how i will miss those memories
Karney Boys, Liberty Boys they love
You a lot. I cant believe what had happened
Chad is taking it just as hard as your parents

All of the Holidays and Birthdays
Will be hard for your friends and
Family. Please listen to me and
Have a great after life. We miss you!

I <3 you, Sis!

That Night Another

Megan was an awesome person
And I’m here to tell you,
She was an angel, doing most
Things right. She cares for others.

She makes everyone’s day when
She comes into seminary with
Her smile on her face
Along with her bubbly personality

She would come in and smile
And sit right across from
Me. She would tell me
All about the dramas.

Most of them revolved
Around her best friend
And her worst enemy
That takes her best friends and guys.

I told her that it was true that she would do that
And that she shouldn’t worry about it
They would break up very soon.
Because the guy still loves her.

That would always
Make her smile
By the end of the day
She would thank me

Of course I said no
Problem and one
Night changes a best friend
They went hill jumping

They came over the hill
And he tried to keep it on
The right side of the road
And instead went into a fence and a tree.

She died instantly.
Her two guy friends
Called 9-1-1;
But it was too late

They quickly got her
Out of the car and the
Paramedics started her
Heart, but she had no brain activity.

That is the true story about Megan Kitchen

That night

Dec. 13, 2008
Have you had a friend ask you to hang out
And that night that friend dies?
It makes you think twice.
I miss her so much now.

Her almost boyfriend killed her
Not even knowing it.
He loved her forever and always
He didn’t do it on purpose.

They were going too fast up on a hill
And they lost control and ran into a
Barb wire fence then rolled
In the car with their seat belts.

I tried to get a hold of her
And no answer, I was so worried
Poor almost couple,
Never going to date.

They were looking forward
To more visits before this
All happened, trust me
I know that feeling

Megan’s friends and family are
Going to the funeral to say final good-byes
For now anyway. We will all meet
Again with Heavenly Father and Jesus.

I can’t wait until Judgment day,
When I know you will be waiting,
For our friendship to continue,
In heavens’ paradise.

School

Dec. 15, 2008
I sit here in class
Waiting for a text
That I will
Never get

This week will be rough
Our hometown is now in
The news more
And more about teenagers

Your parents and the paramedics
Said you died so peacefully
And I wish I could
Be by your side to say,

“It’s your time to go,
You have learned all
You can, now you will
Know about the dinosaurs long ago.”

You would leave so peacefully
And remind me about how smiling
Everyday can make a huge
Difference and make someone’s day.

You are in paradise where
You can see the savior and
All of your past family,
Your family will love you, and never forget you.

We will someday meet again
Don’t you worry; I will make it to you
And tell you how scary the
Second coming was. I love you, Sister!!

Your Smile

Dec. 13, 2008
Your Smile makes my day
You give me good advice
You care so much
I wish I could give back

You love everyone that
Will accept you.
You love church and
All of your friends and family

Too bad your life was short
That only means that you learned everything you could
You and your family
Will always be in my prayers and heart.

I will never forget you or
Your angel-like personality
Even if you thought you
Weren’t an angel.

You are my angel in many ways
I hope when I drive,
I can feel your spirit
With me, I love you, Megan!

MEGAN

Dec. 10, 2008
Marvelous Person
Excellent Friend
Great Heart
Anxious for us to hang out this Christmas Break
Nicest person i know

Kind to everyone
Intelligent
Thoughtful
Child of God
Happy and Cheerful
Excited for this Christmas
Nobel

Memory of Megan Kitchen

Dec. 12, 2008

Who is this picture in my head?
Is it the guy behind me?
Or is it my best friend?
I wish i could tell

The days go by and i see his face
The picture is so clear
But does he notice?
I'll never know til i ask

I dont wanna ask
What if he say no?
Will i feel the same?
Or will i regret it?

He is my best friend
I dont wanna lose him
It might be forever
I cant let that happen

I will keep to myself
While other girls are all over him
Will the green-eyed monster
Still come after me?

I see girls come and go
I am always there for him when he cries.
The more i spend time with him, the more
I see myself with him. Why cant we be?

Tomorrow i will ask what he thinks
About us
It maybe good
It maybe bad, you never know

Tomorrow has came too quickly
I see him at his locker
He comes to me and i ask
What do you think about us?

He pauses, thinks for a mintute
Then smiles and replies
I love you more than everything put together
I would never want to lose you

I smile and say
I love you too, then we were
Sealed together with an eternal kiss
And lived Happily Ever After! :)

in the memory of Megan Kitchen

She loved poetry and got me into it... and we love her, her smile, and her love.

May she rest in peace! RIP